Well…. there is something which I have been wanting to talk about…. something which is bothering me…. Something which I dislike lately…. And that something is -WORK. Well, I cant say I hate working…. I used to love my job, full of passion, full of drive. Competitive and wanted to win every war and learn everything. I am very curious with all aspect of my job and wanted to prove to everyone that I am capable. A Happy_Go_Lucky_Eager_To_Learn_&_Super_Positive girl!
However, recently I lost the drive, the passion…. I get upset about everything that is happening to me. I am negative about additional task that I was given to do (hey, why should I do more when boss is earning MUCH MORE?? Why do I have to do all the Shitty stuff when someone else is claiming the credit?)… I am REALLY ANGRY when things are not done the right way, things don’t turn out to be planned or speaking / dealing with “stupid” people. I snap very easily. I blamed my previous monster workplace who turn me into another monster, I blamed that biatch who bullied me and makes me such negative person. I blame everything and everyone else for things I am not doing right.
Getting out of that shithole was the only thing I want to do. I tot I will “return back to my normal self”. I tot I can find back the passion in my job, find back my drive but I am wrong…. After one month into my new job…. I am still the same me! Less busier but not much more happier!
Why? What have I becoming now? What had happened to me? How can I find my back the passion and drive that I used to have? How can I be less angry with minor things and love life as it is! I dont want to die young, perhaps with Heart Attack or Blood Vessel Bursting or Stroke or something like that! I want to be HAPPY!! Why am I always so negative about things?
I dont like such Me…. I dont like to be negative. I want to have a positive vibe which I know it is in me….. somewhere.
Reading the 7 habits book by Mr Convey (ahem still at the 2nd habit about 2 months of reading), I came across a very interesting topic about our Personal Mission Statement. What do we really want to acheive in our life with the different roles that we are playing? What kind of daughter I want to be? What kind of Sister I want to be? What kind of Mother I want to be? What kind of Partner I want to be? What kind of colleague I want to be? What kind of contribution I want to make? Seriously, what kind of things I want people to talk about or remember about me when I die?? What is really important to me when I am at my deathbed? Very good tots… very good questions I guess…. I start to think whether those things that makes me so angry now, does it really that important when I am dying?
Well, my next step is the create my own Personal Mission Statement… Stay Tune!
If someone is reading… I mean “IF”…. And “if” the someone is interested in writing his/her Mission Statement, following tips to share:
Some suggestions in creating a mission statement may be:
- Write down your roles as you now see them. Are you satisfied with the mirror image of your life?
- Start a collection of notes, quotes, and ideas you may want to use as resource material in writing your personal mission statement.
- Identify a project you will be facing in the near future and apply the principle of mental creation. Write down the results you desire and what steps will lead you to those results.