Its been awhile since I last wrote. I have been feeling tired and restless recently. No joy for anything. All I want to do everyday is SLEEP. My beauty sleep!
I have been writing about my job, how unsatisfied I am with what I am doing. Last week, I went for a charity event that the Charity Organization which I recently joined organizes. We brought a group of kids who are under privilege to USS to a day of fun. It is a super long and tiring day but I enjoyed myself truly. I spoken to the in-charge who is running the centre. She shared that these children are staying with the centre permanantly, some goes home once a week, some dont, depending on their family status and background. She shared with me how this centre is run and how they are helping with those kids. The love and effort they show to the kids, are truly inspiring.
It was such an amazing experience, well honestly, those kids are not the most easiest kids to deal with which can be understandable with what they have gone through, but seeing their smile and laughter, it melts my heart. At the end of the day when we are having dinner at Hard Rock cafe, they sang a song to us, a way they show their appreciation to us, it brought tears to me.
I have been toying with this thought…. is that a God’s calling to me? I have been very unhappy with the Corporate world, dealing with people whom they thought they know the world, they are something which they are not. Dealing with EMPTY headed and heart people. Doing boring and non fullfilling stuff. Is that a path which God is showing me that I should do something different? Somthing that I may be genuinely happy with? I tried to speak with one of my gf about my tot… but some people are just too discouraging. She says it is not easy….. Hello!! I know it is NOT easy, nothing is easy!! But it is about finding your life, doing someting meaningful about your life! Not to waste it like most people are doing!
I know I need a change, but cant decide on what. Dealing with kids and doing some charitable works are always in my list. I just not sure if I can manage or not. Or it is just a moment of thoughts that it will die down?
I dont know… i need help… show me some guidance please….