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A sad Monday

Did I ever mentioned I dislike Monday?  This Monday esp…

Thought I can finally close a group and bring some business to the company but who knows they cancel on me and chosen my competitor instead. Client decides to play me out in an unethical way. Disappointed with people who don’t have integrity but it’s life isn’t it? We will always meet such people. .. we just need to ignore and move on.

After the 1st bomb was dropped on me, received a msg from my close friend who is pregnant with baby twin that her test today shows that the babies don’t have heartbeat. .. This is the second time such thing happened to her, my heart sank when I heard this. This is too cruel… especially to a nice couple like them.

Sometime I do question God…. question why certain things happen…  but still I am a strong believer, I believe that Things Happen for A Reason. I know He has his plan, as always. So we shall patiently awaits for good things for come.

I have recently met up with a mentor, someone whom I think I can look up to, a person who is a close friend to me too. I was sharing with him my unhappiness at work and how it is working with my current boss. I would expect him to show me some sympathey and bitch with me a little coz we both worked with my boss before…. But instead, he tells me something… something which hurts but absolutely true. He says that “No one owe anyone a living… No one owe anyone for an opportunity…. I cant blame anyone for my failing…. I should FIGHT for my own success”.

I have been trying to recall the entire conversation but only these few words keep ringing inside me.

He is very right…. I have been sitting in this office, complaining that opportunity is not given to me…. I blame her for her shitty behavior and her lack of integrity but I dont have the guts to confront her. I dont have the courage to even quit my job so that I can ast least be fair to myself…. Instead, I sit and I complain….

命运掌握在自己的手里 isnt it?

Have a blessed one…

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其实有时后, 不许要那么多的花悄, 简单也是一种美.

只要写出我们的心声, 我们的诚心,或许会有人会欣赏.

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Sometime blogs dont have to be too complicated…. Simple can be beautiful too…

So long as our words are sincere and are words of our own feeling… One day, someone will eventually like it…

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内疚

上个星期六我最爱的小弟終于结婚了! 对于他的这段婚姻,我有很多的感触。。。 但如Rob 说的,这是他的选择,身为大姐的我,是应该支持他的。

当晚,我是Emcee, 任务重大,心情特别的兴奋,感触也特别多,也多喝了几杯 说了不该说的话。。。 事后知道的我,非常内疚,也很伤心。

我为什么不学乖,为什没每次都喝那么多,错那么多。

是时候了,是时候停了。。。

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I have been thinking… what i really want to do in my life… what do I want to acheive at the end of the day… Am i happy doing what I am currently doing?

There have been many thoughts in my mnd recently…. things which I want to do…

I want to paint

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I want to take nice photos to capture each moments of our life

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I want to do my own business

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I want to help others

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I want to love

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I want to feel love

I want…

I was meeting my exboss with my current boss yesterday, talking about my wedding… Suddenly, my current boss tells me that she wants to sit with my exboss otherwise, she will not attend… Really? Do i really have to live others life, do what others want and constantly pleasing others?

Who will think of what i want (well other than Rob), but seriously, who else?

I pray for Courage, pray for Wisdom that One Day… One Day i will quit, i will start moving my ass to do what i want to do… Setting up a business which in return will help others… I am thinking of setting a shop selling my fav stuffs and raise money for charity, for people who need our help. To raise awareness that Hey! There are children out there who dont even have what we call Basic Needs! This is what i really want to do now. Am i very naive to have such thought?

I feel the urge, i am so inspired by some of the blogs that i am reading. I know somewhere inside me is waving for changes, waiting patiently for something to change. I feel that I have a calling, i have a purpose in this life that God has given to me…. i feel that He wants me to acheive something, something more meaningful than the so-called corporate life.

Have you ever did something not from your own will? Doing something just to make someone else feels better?

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